Being A Rebel

More than a good feeling,  more than a source of desire...  Your love for me was sense of existence,  Beyond the race, beyond the struggle  and beyond the mean world. Dint you stop the pace of time, Every time you talked with me? Dint you tell many more beyond the meaning of words? Worldly worried dint matter at all... Yesterdays were forgotten, tomorrows got freeze! Those moments just lived through your love. Was it end of desire, or source of a hope... Or that peace of my mind which I search no more! 20 June 13 Sent from BlackBerry® on Airtel

कितनी बड़ी विडम्बना है जीवन की, हम एक बड़े कल की उम्मीद रखते है... और जिंदगी हर दिन सिमटती जाती है॥ सपने हमेँ सोने नहीं देते, और बेबसी जीने नहीं देती... दुनियादारी में मानवीय मूल्योँ की बोली लगती है, देवता बनाने वाला प्यार, बंदिशेँ बना देता है.  अपनी गलतियाँ अच्छी लगती हैँ... क्या हम 'हम' रह जाते हैँ?  या खुद़ से अनजान बन जाते हैँ.. ॥ ~ अमित, १७ मार्च २०१३, लखनऊ (सर्वाधिकार सुरक्षित) Sent from BlackBerry® on Airtel

Arranged marriage is -  "While you are walking unfortunately a snake bites you."  But Love marriage is - "Dancing in front of a cobra and singing, chuma chuma de de..."  This joke is clearly telling about the freedom lost after a marriage. Being a single and never married person, I am no idea about happily married people as I have seen them very rarely. But as it comes to marrying someone, it gets very tricky. I think, calculations work in both process. Why to become choosy about things, if you able to spot you lover marry with the person... If not, you have system to find. :) Sent from BlackBerry® on Airtel Shaadi.com Indian Matrimonials

On 29th June, 2012 One more year passed by,  while I remained the one... Staying and counting by. Life has been a space in time.. Where people come and go,  They have to go and they do so. While being me, most of the time, into the thoughts and reality...  I Seldom forgot,  when to dim, when to shine.  It was only me,  lived in dark age and waited for the renaissance..  held on ups and stood through down, Lived through guilt,  Survived thorough innocence  who am I? the dream chaser? or own record breaker... Let it be, imperfect me with myself,  (just like this poem) Incomplete yet total in run, Let life be "coming soon" with fun...

With increasingly self centered life, we are facing a world where an individual is becoming more vulnerable to personal disasters like depression, anxiety, grieve, anger and insatiable worries. Interestingly all these topmost sorrows of our lives originate in our mind. We create them, we nurture them and we make them devil to fight against ourselves. Many choose to end their lives by accepting defeat in this battle, many choose a negative way of life, and millions other lose their peace of mind. Question arises, why we become our own enemies by creating such demon in mind? Well, with the help of circumstances and environment, our mind stimulates the emotions and these emotions are very naive and tender to get hurt. When our emotions are hurt, our thinking process starts hatching the negativity which creates the monster in our Mind.    Photo: Sahashtradar Chakra, the source of self-conciseness   In Buddhist philosophy, it is said that – “there are sorrows, and there are ...

My three months at Bangkok have been unusual for a lone single male; as my friends say here. I dint go behind any glittery thing here - material or immaterial . Rather, I joined some spiritual discourse by Buddhist and Hindu sage and monks. For me, it was a big testing time for my own self awareness. I experimented with my thoughts, work, reaction of others and survival skills in not-so-alien land. These days in Bangkok taught me a good lesson for life, 'When you take control of your own life, nothing can happen with you beyond your wish. All worries including stress, anxiety, disappointments, sadness and existential crisis, just wither away. The self awareness becomes more profound and you feel what your wish to feel. This control over own consciousness could be gained by simple meditation focused on realization of self-existence.' No one, no reason and no matter can make you sad. So, you must take control of your own life.    

All adventures and dangers make life interesting, if you are out there alone n cold. You think, you cry, you rejoice, your breakdown... no expectations from someone, no hope for consolation... you got to mentor your own 'run'... and you get out of emotion for further run. The motivation of a better life make the obvious dream... Nothing but a good life is fascinating, and you keep running behind it. You look at others enjoying all fun of life... you console your campaign - 'my life can wait for a good time' and you further run for the dream... and you realize that the running was the only life you had.  

जीवन में जब सब कुछ एक साथ और जल्दी - जल्दी करने की इच्छा होती है , सब कुछ तेजी से पा लेने की इच्छा होती है , और हमें लगने लगता है कि दिन के चौबीस घंटे भी कम पड़ते हैं , उस समय ये बोध कथा , " काँच की बरनी और दो कप चाय " हमें याद आती है । दर्शनशास्त्र के एक प्रोफ़ेसर कक्षा में आये और उन्होंने छात्रों से कहा कि वे आज जीवन का एक महत्वपूर्ण पाठ पढाने वाले हैं ... उन्होंने अपने साथ लाई एक काँच की बडी़ बरनी ( जार ) टेबल पर रखा और उसमें टेबल टेनिस की गेंदें डालने लगे और तब तक डालते रहे जब तक कि उसमें एक भी गेंद समाने की जगह नहीं बची ... उन्होंने छात्रों से पूछा - क्या बरनी पूरी भर गई ? हाँ ... आवाज आई ... फ़िर प्रोफ़ेसर साहब ने छोटे - छोटे कंकर उसमें भरने शुरु किये , धीरे - धीरे बरनी को हिलाया तो काफ़ी सारे कंकर उसमें जहाँ जगह खाली थी , समा गये , फ़िर से प्रोफ़ेसर साहब ने पूछा , क्या अब बरनी भर गई है , छात्रों ने ...