Being A Rebel

It is rightly said that this world is limited to your existence.  But this existence is quite complicated. For someone like me - the existence is sprawled right from the means of living being to some in need and to the society, culture and nation.  I must accept that, many a times I have messed with the priorities of these aspects.Hence, lost on the due course of life. Many companions are lost by cruel hands of nature, many mend their ways out. But I keep discovering myself. Past few years made that phase of life, when the mess was on and personal life was on last priority. Intense socio-political campaign which was started years ago has just yielded power change in India. However, many things have changed. Many hopes are proven myths.  Amidst this chaos in thoughts, somewhere the personal existence has been reckoned. And here I am, back to personal blogs, poems and if time permits some serious research articles. :)

How to define, Being me, you or this world...? Everything changing with time, Have seen people dying...  Every day, Every moment, We get closer to the death. Observing self with each breath...  Yet, the illusion of pride and shame, Unsatisfying the achievement flame... Is it right to rise on ruins of someone's life, Is it right to hoard the lust and grieves?  A rat-race, or just a random epoch of time... A divine planning or just mixture of ammonia and lime? Life has lots to answer... I seek answers in meditation and solitude, I ask to the nature and its magnitude... As little time, life has been spent, The opaque idea is intervened by the sprout of vision. By the time of death only, I would come to know the life and its reason. ~  Amit, 20th July 2013 Sent from BlackBerry® on Airtel

Arranged marriage is -  "While you are walking unfortunately a snake bites you."  But Love marriage is - "Dancing in front of a cobra and singing, chuma chuma de de..."  This joke is clearly telling about the freedom lost after a marriage. Being a single and never married person, I am no idea about happily married people as I have seen them very rarely. But as it comes to marrying someone, it gets very tricky. I think, calculations work in both process. Why to become choosy about things, if you able to spot you lover marry with the person... If not, you have system to find. :) Sent from BlackBerry® on Airtel Shaadi.com Indian Matrimonials

This time I am not going to ask myself: 'Who am I' Budhha did that and he gave a solution to us: the middle path. I would rather ask 'where am I?' Not at this place where caste, religion identities are the only thing that matter... Not at this place where I am a part of huge crowd, trying to live like a commoner... Was not contained by the ambitions or dream, Hence this place where I am, Does not impress with its outlook of identities, rush or crime. I am well behold by my karma and thought. Seeking own salvation, but in my own way. Wherever I am, I there to extend helping hands to my extent. Understanding them but not being their part. They can create troubles in their ways... But I have my own path of vogue, and I must go on. Some nice people called me friend... Some not so nice people saw me as enemy. But I am what I am. It might take a bit longer... As I am by my own. I must carry own. I am not here to stay,...

On 29th June, 2012 One more year passed by,  while I remained the one... Staying and counting by. Life has been a space in time.. Where people come and go,  They have to go and they do so. While being me, most of the time, into the thoughts and reality...  I Seldom forgot,  when to dim, when to shine.  It was only me,  lived in dark age and waited for the renaissance..  held on ups and stood through down, Lived through guilt,  Survived thorough innocence  who am I? the dream chaser? or own record breaker... Let it be, imperfect me with myself,  (just like this poem) Incomplete yet total in run, Let life be "coming soon" with fun...

It is often said "follow your heart" and be what you want to be. The examples given are Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Amithabh Bachhan and so on. It is true happiness is to do what you love to do. However, it's only one side of story, the other side always remains in darkness... Just like moon, we only see the brighter side of it. There are millions other who waste their potentials and talent just by following their heart and likings.  No one is a Steve Jobs until he/she becomes a CEO of the Apple. The person remains a broken guy who goes to Hare Krishna temple in search of good food. The point is, you essentially need a success story. There are many talented guys who are much more creative and active but they remain unknown till their last breath - living in a Oakwood banglow of North America or doing some tricks of Dharavi Slum of Mumbai. These guys are no less but things didn't click with them or they didn't think beyond the horizon.  The point is, yo...